1st movement DAWN OF DREAMS – Before the Dawn of Sorrow – Part -Middle part
Posted date：2022-05-02Author：じゅうべい(Jubei) Transrator：ポンタ(Ponta)
Category：No.7 Yugyo: A New Tomorrow Leading to Light , The Sacred Biography of Heian Buddhism: Amitabha Sage (Hijiri) Kuya, ed.
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The middle part: DAWN OF DREAMS
Father… Mother…
In me, Oyu, visions of my father and mother float in and out of my mind, and then disappear as if they were collapsing. I have always lived, seeking the two who are nowhere now.
And each time, a nightmare awakens me.
Yes, that was … that was too sudden and too inexcusable.
Father… mother… wait. I’ll save you without fail.
So… so…
Please do not go die.
But, in vain, the two, my father and mother …
When she said that much, Oyu cannot stand it any longer and holds her mouth with her hand, her body trembling and depressed, and she begins to sob.
I … I …
Couldn’t do nothing.
I couldn’t save the two.
Father, mother …
I, Oyu, was screaming that name over and over again in my mind as I looked down.
Please open your eyes, please.
Oh, it’s coming again. I have that day in me again …
No, no, don’t leave me alone. Don’t leave me.
Please help me. Someone, please help me.
Don’t leave me alone. Please.
I can’t stop, the trembling of my body, the tears, and the pain … I can’t stop them.
The memory of that day has become an evil spirit and is beginning to rule in me. Again, the evil spirit has taken over me …
Why? Why?
I keep asking myself questions that never end in suffering.
Why must I endure such pains?
What did I do? I did nothing bad and why do I have to be treated so?
I was just wanted to be with my father and mother.
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I can’t stop my trembling. The pains won’t disappear. The sorrow won’t disappear.
The interminable darkness is enveloping me again.
Help. Someone … help.
“Alright … Alright …”
What?
“It’s okay.”
I can hear voice?
“It’s okay.”
Who are you?
Someone is calling out to me in the darkness. To me.
Who are you?
“Come on, calm down. It’s okay, it’s okay.”
I found myself returning from the nightmare world of that day. I can see Kuya’s face right next to me. That person is rubbing my back gently and slowly. With his soft and calm look on his face, me …
“It’s okay, it’s okay.”
“It’s okay.”
All your pain and sadness are not your fault.
You are nothing wrong, nothing wrong.
So, it’s okay … it’s okay …
“Sorry … sorry …!”
As soon as Oyu said so, suddenly she was clutching at my chest. Then, a moment after I thought her whole body was in a state of shock, she cried aloud and loudly. With her body shaken and her tears streaming down throughout her body.
“Sorry, sorry, sorry!!”
Sorry for not saving you. Sorry for not protecting you.
With such Oyu in front of me, I Kuya, embrace her gently. Gently embrace her heart and take in all she has to offer.
All right, all right, all right.
I take it all in, rubbing her back, stroking her head.
You are nothing bad, nothing bad.
It’s was hard, painful and sad for you.
But, it’s okay. It’s okay. So do not blame yourself any more.
You’re nothing bad.
Continue to “the latter past: whereabouts of the soul”
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