1st movement To the one I love – the latter part –

The latter part: To my loved one

“Namu Amida Butu, Amida Butu. Namu Amida Butu, Amida Butu.”

I was thinking of Ren while reciting the Nenbutu to the western sun. Ren whom I cherish and love.

“Ren, why do you always recite Namu Amida Butu?”

When my disease had not completely cured, I have asked Ren so who was caring me in Koro-kan.
“That’s supposed to be said to dead people, isn’t it?”
Then, Ren put her hands together with calm smile on her face and started to recite Nenbutu against me and herself.

“Namu Amida Butu, Amida Butu. Namu Amida Butu, Amida Butu.”

“Sister, don’t worry. This word is the one for Amida Buddha protecting me and you.”
“Amida Buddha?”

“Who did say such a thing?”
“Kuya.”
“That person …”
“Yes.”
When I was showing the facial expression that I couldn’t believe yet, Ren opened her mouth calmly.
“I’ll believe.” “What Kuya said.”

I was feeling it at that time.
When I was in Rajomon and was sleeping in his arms gently held, I was certainly feeling it.

Amida Buddha is there.
Amida Buddha is gently seeing and protecting us there.

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“So”
Ren says gently stroking my head.
“I made up my mind. I made up my mind to save you, to protect you.”

Amida Buddha will protect you for sure.
It is gently seeing and protecting you for sure.

“That is why I recite the Nenbutu to protect you.”

“Ren …”

– So, don’t worry, sister. –

Ren gently stroked my head saying so.

I got the irresistible feeling by Ren’s words.

My heart was touched.
It is not that I am in pain. I am happy.
I’m so happy, so happy, so happy.

“Thank you … thank you, Ren.”
My voice was trembling and a tearful voice. I felt something hot rising up from the bottom of my chest. Ren is protecting me. She is gently enveloping my body and mind. Gradually, my inner canthus started to be hot, my heart was touch more and more with joy.

Well, I couldn’t resist it. I couldn’t resist it any more.

-Oh, Ren.-

I couldn’t resist it very much and stretched my both arms and slowly held Ren. With much love, gently, slowly, and firmly.
“We’ll be together even in the future.”
“Yes, I love you, Ren.”
“I love you, too.”

I was certainly feeling it when enveloped by Ren’s warm kindness.

“Namu Amida Butu, Amida Butu. Namu Amida Butu, Amida Butu.”

When I found myself, I was reciting Amida Nenbutu in my mouth naturally. Wrapped by warmth and calmness, I was reciting Amida Nenbutu against myself, Ren, and all in this world.

“Namu Amida Butu, Amida Butu. Namu Amida Butu, Amida Butu.”
Thank you, Amida Buddha. Thank you, Ren.

Continue to “The second movement: The madder red bond – I will believe in you and entrust all of myself to you -”.

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じゅうべい(Jubei)
Hello everyone. I am Jubei, an earthling whose energy does not stop today. What I like is playing (manga, movies, music (J-Rock, etc.) and visiting cafes). Thank you for your understanding.