1st movement: Amida Buddha is there – Part 1

The first chapter: Mild warmth, a light will be lit.

Today, in this place, the sick, the poor, and the orphans who lived for the day on the streets of the capital are still spending time with each other. Here live the poor, the sick, and the orphaned in the capital for various reasons.

For them, this may be the only and last place left to stay.

In such a last remaining place, they live caring for each other today. Those who suffer from illness are taken care of by those who do not. Or some give food to hungry children.
Whenever I see this scene, I, Tatumi, think this way.

That perhaps a warm connection is now taking shape in this place.

This place I’m in now is called Nishikourokan. It is a tall building with a tiled roof, located a little north of Rajomon (at the site of Ukyo Shichijo Ichibo 3 and 4-cho) and built to the west of Suzaku-oji Avenue, which runs through the center of the capital.

However, since the destruction of Balhae several decades ago (in 926) and the end of exchange (in 938), it is said to be no longer in use.

The site of the Korokan is said to be as large as two towns (250 meters from north t south and 121 meters from east to west). It is more than enough space for poor people like us to live. It seems that the poor and sick like us are supposed to be housed in public facilities called Hiden-in and Shiyaku-in. But now, it is said that they rarely function properly except during epidemics. So the poor and sick are converting facilities that are no longer needed in the capital into living quarters.

The sick and poor people who live here in Korokan, including me, each one of us has a different personality. No one person is the same. However, despite their different statuses and lived pasts, all of the people here have one thing in common. It is to know more deeply than anyone else the pain and sorrow of being abandoned in this world. And that they know better than anyone else how nice it is to have someone who sincerely reaches out to them at such times.

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That is why they know the pain and sorrow of living in this world better than anyone else. Of course, I, one of them, am at heart the same as everyone else.

Abandoned to this world, we wandered in the darkness all the time in the capital. Even though I was trying to be strong, I was really very lonely, sad, and in pain. And then, wallowing in the never-ending pain, I cried alone in the darkness.

There is no such thing as light for us.
All we have is a world of hell during life and hell after death.

We cannot escape this world. We have to live in such a world.

I was thinking so.

There will be no tomorrow for us. There will be no salvation to us.

It was then.
That those people reached helping hands to me and all of us.

I will not abandon you. I will never abandon you.

That person said that and wrapped me in her warm heart. She gently wrapped me up in her arms, even though I was helpless and soiled from all the sins I had committed. She told me.

How happy I was and how saved I felt when she said those words to me. I was wandering in the darkness, and this was the moment when a ray of light appeared in my frozen heart. And the light grew so fast that it enveloped me in warmth. A light was lit in my heart that was not supposed to be lit. I still remember how happy I was at that moment. And I’ll never forget. I’ll never forget in my all life.

Thank you, Oyu.
Thank you for saving and supporting me.

“To be continued to the sequel”

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じゅうべい(Jubei)
Hello everyone. I am Jubei, an earthling whose energy does not stop today. What I like is playing (manga, movies, music (J-Rock, etc.) and visiting cafes). Thank you for your understanding.